Hey all!!! OMG, so please don’t shoot me!! I have been SOOOO busy and have completely neglected my poor little blog. NO MORE… i am back!!!!!
I will do a quick write up about what i’ve been up to in the last few months….
but here is my new blog on my belly change!
New food rules for me!! I have been STTRRUUUGGLING with too much food at dinner. It’s almost 99% more psychological than anything and I am sabotaging all of my hard work. I heard Trish Blackwell (Trishblackwell.com PS> AMAZING podcastS!) talk about this on her podcast and I’m going to put it into motion… along with all of my other food revisions as well!
Now I just need to plan out WHAT I’m going to eat!?? Lol!
AS SEEN ON TRISH BLACKWELL’S PODCAST!
- 3 Hour Rule
- 2nd serving rule (small serving first)
- Small pleasures, don’t ever sacrifice a small indulgence.
- Use the “Hunger Scale:” Eat consciously, checking in w/yourself before, during and after the meal, noticing how your body feels and how your mind feels (www.doctorjenn.com)
- Don’t engage in diet talk or behavior – See more at: http://www.trishblackwell.com/5-intuitive-eating/#sthash.UZFysw1m.dpuf
4=pangs of hunger
5=neutral 4-6 is my “GOAL” zone! and i will be okay if i hit a 7 for now!
10=sick to my stomach
What are my other food revisions??
Well. Let met me enlighten!
If you’ve read my past posts, you know that I have issues with IBS, or so that’s what they tell me. And I am convinced that is because they don’t know what else is wrong with me. In all of my research, I really should do an elimination diet or the FODMAP to see if I get any relief, however, I feel like a three year old screaming “I don’t want to!”. I really don’t want to give up anymore. It’s hard enough being 30, and trying to have a social life and find what you can eat that doesn’t upset your stomach, or makes you look 3 months preggers, OR having to explain yourself EVERy time you eat in front of someone.
I have learned to be confident in my decisions with food. It is what it is, I can’t change it! So I am okay with it. However, after about the third person questioning what you’re eating, or why you’re not eating, or looking at me crazy because I have to send my food back because the order came with croutons even though I asked for it without, can be exhausting! (Almost as exhausting as that sentence. Wow, do I detect passion in my writing? Lol.)
I have gone through and had success with little pieces of diet plans!
First, I started with the Tone It Up Nutrition Plan. BEST investment. Because it really started to help guide me with my gluten free lifestyle. I was able to integrate dairy free into the plan as well! Plus, losing those last pesky lbs didn’t hurt too much either!!!
To this day, I still follow that plan 80% of the time. My only pitfall is squash at dinner. And I usually overeat it!!
I have been going through the motions with the gluten/dairy free lifestyle for a while now. I know that most people will say that stress and IBS don’t mix. They don’t! I had a little hiccup in a diagnosis gone array a month or so ago, and there was quite a bit of grief and stress related to it! All is better now, however I think my stomach didn’t like my psyche too much during that time!
I did some more research and one of my favorite bloggers, Sarah Koffman @ http://www.sarahkayhoffman.com/ was talking about her ebook one day. The Gutsy Girls Bible. If you struggle with any digestion issues, this is a great resource from someone who understands, and has gone through it. Still going through it too, if you read her blog!
I started reading her book and I began to slowly eliminate things from my diet that way too… I have stopped eating avocados, tomatoes, I try to cook my veggies instead of eating them raw… I don’t eat peppers anymore (RIP salsa!). However, for all that I gave up, the feeling of eating a meal and not feeling like I am going to float away after is worth the sacrifice!!
I have learned to identify my “triggers”, or foods that I know will show up in symptoms after eating them.
However, along with that ‘stress’ came some old revolving food issues for me. I didn’t realize it until this Monday. I have a disordered eating past. I have definitely come a LONG way and will never return to not eating. However, I still battle with my relationship. I don’t think I’ll ever be cured, but just able to deal with it better on a daily basis. AKA food can’t win. It doesn’t control me. BUT, I sometimes slip. And I have realized that I have been ‘overeating’ now. This morning I woke up with food guilt for the first time in a few months. And this past 6 months, I have had food guilt at least 3 times. That’s 3 times too many in my book. NO ONE should have food guilt.
Okay, so I guess I should back up…. do you know what food guilt is?? www.hercampus.com defines food guilt as a spectrum. There is your basic food guilt where you indulge in a meal and feel horrible the next day. Then there is a more serious situation, where after every single meal you feel excessive guilt, shame or potential regret. When I was in my disordered eating phase, every meal had food guilt. It is no way to live. No person should feel any bit of shame for eating a meal! Or feel badly for fueling their body. It took me a LONG time to get over that guilt, so even when it rears its ugly head in a non serious way I get cautious.
Well, when I realized this, I thought about what can I do to change it? If I stay the same, then I will probably go down a path that I will not like myself for. And life is just WAY TOO SHORT not to like yourself!! So I have made a decision to try another technique! This grade my hunger thing! I am going to go back to eating my 6 meals a day, which I have sort of gotten away from, and I am going to gauge each meal! Half way through, I will stop and ask myself, am I still hungry? If I am, I will finish my meal.
I am also a psychological eater… is anyone else tricky like this? I will take 1 serving size and make it into two. I always feel more satiated if I eat two servings vs. one… even thought that two really is one. Hey, it works for my silly head and belly!
So I will keep you updated on my new habit! And let you know how I do!!
In the meantime….
Have you ever suffered from food guilt?
Do you play tricks on yourself to let you think you’re eating more, when you’re really not?